Tuesday, July 9, 2024
I remember how she would laugh so hard she would have to run to restroom. How epic the fudge and potato salad was at all the huge get togethers we had when I was growing up. All the reunions at Uncle Bucky's and Aunt Helens old house. The fudge was first to go. Had to post a guard you could trust by the little green bowl the treasures were kept in..then she would try to sneak money to some peace sometimes, had to chase em down. She was so great......I am sorry that I am just know hearing of her passing im excommunicated and my heart is destroyed finding out a year later. It was 2 months for my other pap and several for my other gram..I'm sorry I got off topic. She was one of the most amazing human beings to ever grace my life and I'm sure many other lives as well. I wish I was a better grandson to her. Wish I was a lot of things..a better father for a start. The hole I have had in my heart is inconceivable. But it is of my own doing. Mary was on my side when I went to jail, when I was going through rehab, she had my back no matter what. I wish all could go back to how it was, back before she was in hospice, before she was sick, let's say before everyone's face is stuck to a screen. Back to a time where just sitting around kitchen table playing war, 5 card stud, or even checkers. Popcorn popping in the weird little machine she had for it. Munching on some of those oyster cracker Orville Redenbacher butter ranch mix she made earlier. Eating, playing cards, laughing..After that bring out the VHS of the naked gun 33 1/3 she hasn't saw yet and laugh all night...she was one in a million, she was a saint, sent here to keep idiots like me in check, but still do what she can to keep me from staying off the path to far. I love you grandma Im sorry I wasn't allowed to come see you. Your an angel